I hope this is a good section of the forum to put this here… I want to ask you to help me out to get a better grasp of my experience I had 3 years back when I was 28. I would appreciate suggestion from people, who actually experienced Enlightenment.
I am not sure, if my Life Purpose was fully revealed for me, or it might have been an accidental Enlightenment experience.
The circumstances were like this. I offered free consultation to a student of mine to help him develop a better statistical model to get better results in his semester paper. It took us a few consultation sessions. Student submitted the paper with a full statistics model, I corrected the paper, after that he did re-wrote it … it was a lot of work, but worth it.
When I was going through the final version of the paper, something mystical happened. I started to have a great sense of joy, which started to grow rapidly. I had to sit down, the joy did grow into ecstasy. Suddenly all the emptiness in me was filled with this amazing feeling.
And it kept on growing quickly. I suddenly though as if I am going to a different place. I got scared since I felt as if my brain is going to explode with joy. I could not do anything, just to witness, what was happening. From the start, it might have been a few seconds.
It felt as if I was losing myself, my sense of self was gone. When I passed that feeling, I felt as if I went some barrier. I was simply just on my chair alone in the office. I experienced an eminent feeling of joy, peace, beauty, fulfillment. And the feeling lasted for a few minutes. I was just experiencing the greatest feeling in my life, ever.
I didn’t have any seeing apart these feelings. If I would compare this to something, the only thing, that comes up to my (atheistic) mind is only: “Being touched and cheered by God himself”.
This experience was deeply personal for me. I did not experience anything like this at any point before or after. I do meditate frequently for 20 – 45 minutes. The best experience I got so far might have been a feeling of energy going upwards my spine as if I started to “fly”.
At first, I thought to myself, I have discovered my Life Purpose, which seemed to me “Help others grow.” Or the explanation might have been, that the student paper was containing a bit of LSD or DMT I might have inhaled. xD
Lately, I thought about this experience differently. Could that be an Enlightenment experience? I would appreciate suggestions from people, who actually experienced Enlightenment.
Thank you all