Something thats really interesting that I felt like sharing since there are lot of you who seem to be very similar in ways of thinking and exposure to life and knowledge circumstances, is a realization that shifted a lot for me and put my mind for a loop and brought it into a silence and surrender, is the realization that “Meaning”, “Purpose” and perhaps “Questions” themselves are a paradigm rather than inherent and can be a barrier to Self Understanding.
When I saw that they are not necessarily fundamental happenings in and of themselves, somehow put a checkmate on the constant assumption and searching for meaning and purpose in things or what somethings supposed to mean but rather these expressions are aspects that some forms (such as humans and yet to be discovered aliens) experience and go through, like dolphins play and swim, or make certain sounds, laterally different and equal, expressions of Life expressing itself. Also perhaps as a human or a type of human, the constant pursuit of trying to find and understand Purpose and Meaning was a distracting activity from realizing and letting go, or surrendering into the expansion of Self Understanding. Or simply just a over focused pursuit that avoided or did not appreciate and recognize the simplicity of breathing, playing, relationships, silence, jokes, simple 9-5 stuff.