Greetings fellow integralists!
First of all I just want to say that I am incredibly excited that this forum exists and am incredibly excited to see how this can contribute to my personal growth. So thank you all.
I have a few issues that I wanted to get some outside perspective on.
It’s actually funny but as I’m writing this I have this voice in the back of my head saying that I should stop writing and that my ideas aren’t worth spreading and that I have nothing of worth to share. As I notice this I’m aware that this is a part of my shadow that probably is contributing to all the issues I’m going to talk about but it seems that just being aware of it hasn’t yet given me any insight in what action to take.
But I digress, my main question is as follows: I currently reside in Melbourne, Australia and even though I know of a few groups that do discuss integral ideas I’m not able to meet up with them very often so I have a very hard time keeping my center of gravity at a 2nd tier level. Most of my friends/relatives that I am around a lot of the time don’t seem to care about integral ideas (I do try bringing bit and pieces up from time to time). The hardest thing about this isn’t that they don’t care but that from my perspective I can completely understand why they wouldn’t care. I feel like at any other level I might try and fight for my ideas a bit more but from a 2nd tier perspective I know I can’t force anyone to see past their line of sight. It just won’t work. So I don’t talk about it much. But this sees me getting very bored with conversations and then I can’t stop thinking that I should try more but when I do I just don’t care. Then I feel bad and try more and it’s just an endless cycle. I am aware that I should try to find some other way of talking through integral ideas (hence my love of integral life and this forum) but i just wish I could find more. I realize that I’ve been ranting a bit here so I’ll get to the point. Have any of you lovely people ever had a similar experience? And if so how have you dealt with it? At the moment I am feeling very lonely being an integralist…