This is the best meme I have seen in years
Sorry the guy seems to be sort of weird and alt-right subtle american I think I posted the spaceweather site, yet ultimately idk if the guy is right winged or not he is weird sorry for the post
This seems to be fine:
I figure there are some core issues, I find it tricky to speak about my base intuition, as I had a keen interest in very edgy and now alive corners, yet I am surpised with the revolts of the youth, as partially in universities, imo Wilber is still correct, Green is responsible as they lack the integration of competence to often care about younger generations, and with economical issues, I feel as though many are left out wondering why they are not invested into to grow society at larger, yet I was very deeply working ony the value of Truth for me, I also watched the new episode of Leo Gura, yet what Truth currently is lacking is enough compassion for humanity as a whole, I donât think many will understand and many will just rest in peace, thinking and contemplating, I also watched the new episode from Huberman Lab on consciouness with a well-known neuroscientist, and I really loved and enjoyed his spirit in the podcast, this is exactly what Iâd require in my generation, yet I donât think many care or are compassionate enough in their field to truly help and give value.
I still find it odd to contemplate as I got into astrology, as I thought astronomy is going to be way to difficult etc. yet there are some good channels and I still sense the lingering undercurrent of power grabbing for survival and survival is Truth, I donât quiet know how to contemplate this. The past days I felt quiet weird, as I donât really know anymore what to truly feel and think as people are so narccistic these days and family oriented, I keep deleting LinkedIn members, I donât know at times if trusting traitors is better than trusting friends and families, and I donât mean literal traitors by action simply this BaZi pattern, as the unveil the corruption of society, and find the right loopholes, instead of maximizing profit and claiming wealth, I find this stage green obsession with DW also weird, itâs a role reversal, yet I can also be wrong for me as a meditator and what I experience recently is as if the cosmic and karmic path is inevitable to me, they often break-up in this way and lead me to more experiencing allowing god, in the way itâs fitting.
Itâs just a brief statement, I donât intend to write more.
Itâs interesting this went up to 6,6k I deleted every tarot reader besides 1 or 2, as I donât think many are serious enough or have the discipline and intuition to use it properly, and I watched the episode with Guru Viking about it, or they are just to negative and power hungry people, let alone the names and the whole name consciouness etc. I donât know actually if conscious masturbation makes me reptillian brain more conscious instead of with holding the energy, as transmuting it still is odd, I often rather enjoy the peaks, also speaking about it takes a lot of shame away, yet I still think society is fundamentally in prejudice injury if my mother sends me Obama videos, yet absolutely regressed and now come back itâs odd how fast her normal consciouness is, itâs ironic how fking harsh goat blade type of people are, and the issues that arise with god. Apparently I will die with 80 in april, but I doubt, it but I appreciate the prediciton, and I will have two sons. But yeah idk, itâs mostly fun to me. I am looking to integrate some level of play as consciouness and truth and look at the inclusion of pain later, I am pretty sure this episode will highlight a key fact about humanity, also I am still convinced Leo Gura is a huge issue and partially a cult leader, an online partial cult leader, looking at Dany Renchs story and just his whole language and undertone, idk heâd do better living in Thailand or smth. Itâs odd he is like Freezer from Dragon Ball, a nice asshole, but at times I hate him from a deep compassion standpoint and I generally donât wish him well, he has been the biggest regret I faced in my life, yet he is also ill. Idk itâs weird he is similar with millenial types of bigotry and micro-aggresions as soon as I hear the word behaviour also in this two-way type of viewing reality, matter of fact he is the most deragitory person Iâve seen when it comes to elitist selection, even if he seems and acts the opposite at one point you will meet the devil, I think he is working on it, but part of me despises his existence, I hope I donât meet him on a bad day and I seriously at times hope someone will shoot this ranting mouth about Truth if he does not enter Mahasamadhi, begone or shut up finally! He brings his relationship issues and fame whoring even worse than a twitch streamer to the foreground so often, just get a Ph.D and enjoy some eventing to share your impact, itâs not about his work, but his life, that I despise and he gets off on this, I really do not like him, I am convinced I am not the only one who wishes him not well, as he is an asshole when it comes to hierachy and flatout racist imo, but he will deny it with love⌠like the old alt-right. At times I have more compassion for Nazis.
I feel a bit akward typing this, as I sense that my core issue with sexual transmutation of energy, and embracing stage purple and engaging with stage purple via these archetypes and finding other stuff can be beneficial, yet tbh with all the porn etc. present and the current dating situation the point of justice. I did a draw and in recent times I pulled the justice card so often, I canât truly riffel shuffle, yet I often get in a PNS level of consciouness that is very different from the sympathetic overdrive, and the new water rower somehow seems to help my scar, so I often enjoy testing all scenarios, even when I redirect the energy and have more energy, my energy seems to rejuvinate relatively fast still, I canât stand this long burning type of sensations and I associated that with yin fire, I also found an chinese website that dives into the specifics of this, and I sense I go more with the current times, and when I see the issues of intellectuals and the new age expressions itâs often that exactly the entire point even what people imagine german culture etc. is like becomes an issue. I canât really put it into words, the other danger is living like a guru and sleeping with endless girls and building not a god like connection, yet often I find I can create that within myself and share that with everyone that is involved, I really notice how I feel afterwards in my body in the recent years itâs as if when I engage in all of this consciously I am attuning my body more to what the world actually is, I would become superhuman transmuting that energy, and Iâd most likely enter mahasamadhi.
I also thought the whole time as the people who call for Truth, why are you not gone in Mahasamadhi? It was so annoying and even thorugh this if I could I would most likely go at one point, I donât really know at times my perception of consciouness is odd, and I thought and keep thinking itâs better to engage in this, and move first the a potential shamanic issue, than negating sexuality all in itself, itâs not even negating, itâs more an issue of connections are already that bad, there is no real natural rhythym besides I introduce it and transmutting it, the teachers have been to liberal that can also be good, yet I wonder currently I also feel generally this gives me more success, also with women, and also relieves me from social pressure, as there are sort of two ways or multiple ways, and I donât know as I became older and the world has become more bitter, and sexuality and just creating a vital holistic space for myself without these suicide dungeon dwellers, a home and a dungeon are two different things, and currently I feel as though the one neighbour craves me home and makes his space the party dungeon, I donât know why the nervous systems getâs such cravings, yet it has to be that the person wants to escape hypergamy.
Ever since I got into all of this, idk itâs weird to think about this reality let alone through conscious intention and energy showed me two sides, yet very often it is tied into the issues of human imagination, yet I naturally bend it towards a new plateu I feel like itâs often to the benefit of all, if I get the spaces and the bazi stuff I found more mixtures of original texts and the modern translation based on original text, I feel fortunate have a superior pillar, Ken Wilber also has one, they all have troubles, yet I found it interesting as I viewed it so negatively and fundamentally in reverse, and I felt attracted to certain people even in the real world that have superior pillars and similar problems when it comes to being noble, as well as marriage, hence idk.
Working on my physical health while not giving me as much control is most likely better, I am not very good at energy control, due to negative believes and I am working on that, the more I am experiencing the transcendent qualities of purpose or vision the more I get it. Also I became fairly good at doing all of this consciously, I still wish I had more abillity to use it more consciously, yet if my entire heart space feels like god, doing just some minor practices, and allowing to âslip upâ the better I feel as failure or making mistakes is normal, in a setting like a monastary or retreat itâs easier to not engage in this, and to let go of it, as your filled with activities, there are some deep wounds also associated with this, that feel difficult to share, as there are some more fucked people that I donât want to engage with partially or some core fear idk if itâs tied to BaZi, yet I see it in some.
Following his teachings and even using it now, instead of engaging with the natural evolution of consciouness or god of what I felt was and is the biggest mistake I make, I still benefitt, yet there is a lot of fame whoring Iâd have to take out of it. I am very angry at what this guy does, yet he is better as a mentor but also a groomer 100%, this guy will never be able to fully lead with integrity as he is corrupt to the bones to some extend, and I wish myself to be more pure everyday when I see this guy, not because he is evil, yet because he is an asshole and he knows it. I did my best integrating shadow work sessions, I was fortunate to find teachers, yet my core intuition was to never engage with him or his followers, as it was just status, fame power and exploitative sharp comments with sexuality to up my authority to get more women and then fame kicks back in some drive to some extend.
I kept wondering what healthy recognition is like, I donât really enjoy his intellectual side either, as that defense mechanism is very nasty, I do it also, yet in the end. I am glad to never ever witness this coward again, this was my core gut feeling about him when I yearned to engage more with life, parts of me wishes he finally gets banned from YouTube even if there is good quality pragmatic information, and he means well I will dislike him from this point on, I see it to often the subtle forms of human uglyness and he is the epitome of that. If he can control his sex drive for more than 1-2 years Iâd appreciate him, but unironically when I view it from the flip side of it he does it well, but if he speaks about Truth this is where I got pissed, why are you not in mahasamadhi and here, the way you spoke and wrote at times, the guy has no class I swear, and itâs an issue I am partially facing when I engage in more holism and eudaimonia and well-being I attract these wounded people. Idk this is very nasty for me to write, yet the guy is nastyness itself and not in the good sense, there are some who would attest with their lives for it I bet.
I still am convinced his political takes and his complaints are good, yet it all stems from getting rid of the negative. Itâs more from a consciouness sense I despise him as a human I wish him well, at time Iâd wish heâd simply engage the creativity more into some form of structure I donât think the aspirational aspect is bad, yet his language and mannerism, if he could be more playfully creative weâd have more peace on earth, with this rigid intellectuals, itâs so bad also mocking vulnerable people is just pure weakness, or twisting it in some way the guy is evil pretty sure.
I deleted him and others who just force to much Truth onto others and then act like this martyr suffering look what I have done to you, there are SOOOOOOOOOO many notions tied to this, please just go away!!
This is also good, as I felt this guy is often more in dential of life energy, when he is more affirming of it itâs way more enjoyable, yet itâs more like force, not energy idk itâs strange.
This is sort of what he means I donât condem him in the ultimate sense, yet I have never ever had such negtives feelings about one person letâs see how far this will go, I often felt that he is the type of guy whoâd lure your girl away with his possesions and he is oh so moral, where I notice the simplicity and compassion of connection to all beings in all releams is way way more important, and I donât think his teachings from the get go were very life affirming, the impact is quiet negative, and the ones who benefitted the most imo left him very quickly.
This was one of the better episodes with all of the b.s that is happening in the health industry and the idea of conscious impact, and why I read or expanded my viewpoints etc. or even engaged in engineering and academia, the core thing is itâs still an issue or multiple issues that I have with the generation. This was very good to watch for my soul, and the new age narccicism in America, it will be inevitable to some extend and even then idk if it was some value in terms of past lives etc. If the teacher is genuiently good at it, or it happens with a real teacher during a retreat and there is some room for integration.
Some of this stuff went very good, till I feel like many others they moved into this bitterness envy spectrum because of conscious sexuality, and I had way way less support, and the issue of masculinity was obvious that itâs vehemently wounded in this post-modern dating issue and sense. I certainly have strong wounds due to the discrimination etc. and the value-based rankings that happen because of discrimination and the intense family support for survival people get that are allowed to engage with the benefit of a family.
The thing that annoys me more is what if he is wrong, and parts of it are important these are the difficult things I read in-between I struggle to express and I will most likely how itâs heading talk to others about this, as there is a constant ressonance with my own life story and attunement, ideally I can be grateful forgive myself and move on finally. Itâs very painful to include the lessons of counter-perspective and druggy kids generally speaking. I canât stand it anymore, especially cigarettes etc or people who trip simply to much, idk I am very angry still, yet the video was very good in terms of legacy, as I notice this guys corruption when it comes to sex etc. and some issues even if he speaks the correct perspective, itâS impossible to not engage in it to some extend, yet transcending and including is the best path.
Also science and evolution annoyed the living shit out of me when I entered it everything is being digitalized and reconstructred or reproduced in a digital way next 50-100 years sigh⌠idk
I watched parts of the new episode, I feel sort of weird, with the core issues that are happening globally, I downloaded some new games, and kept talking to people I started to like, even though the beginnings are sort of rough, and I turned out they like Trump and all of this, and the irony is they all liked me, even when I am black etc. or half black, they added me as friends, I kept talking to them about normal things, and even if the communication was rough, it was interesting how sort of respectful theyâve been, even if the opinions are off, here in Germany, I never experienced that. I sort of feel odd, as for the first time I felt like I could talk b.s again, and still give a little bit of influence so things donât turn out to bad, and I can fact check misinformation, with more liberals friends, it has been more about the working reality and very diffficult problems and dating very often, but also in a more conscious fashion.
This was very interesting to me, as a social experience, as I had a lot of fear with what has been happening, yet they treated me even more normally then what I experienced in the last years, but itâs more complicated than this to be fair. I bought a new game and I saw the new stuff integral offers, I fixed more of my health issues, I bought a water rower and that seems to work for now, what I find weird is some subtle different stuff, but right now I am relaxing from all the attention my success created and some of the core issues, most of what helps me is written in ROT or I can find here, and interconnect. The exercises I do are also very good, yet I find it difficult when I notice some of the stuff the right populist people complained about is not really fair in my opinion, itâs mostly out of bitterness, and I wonder why some white folks turn so bitter, itâs like pain has been their friendship, not actual fun and enjoyment, but utility and triggering the ego of others, especially if itâs a 6âish influence, without getting into BaZi. I donât really know why, I feel like the most influence in my environment came from different enneagram types, but still plenty of that, I lost a lot of friends, as I donât enjoy keeping up with cycles of movies and releases, and theyâre mostly not as educated and the educated people all hosted movie nights and film nights and organized stuff like this themselves, it was way more peer pressure, yet I come from a modern town.
The votes of the populist party trippled here, I see sort of why, yet I donât really fit any sterotype, and I am actually more threatened imo, by what the people do they rebel against, yet at times to much order also causes a lot of b.s I donât know what will happen in the next few years, next year is the soccer world cup in the americas, I donât think that is good for Russia, eventually just all of that jazz, sort of what I experiencec with my 7 archetype will heal the globe, I just wish there is less actual war, but idk what will happen.
I hope the new things I did will allow me to actually clean my appartement to a level and not be hit with smoke from my neighbours constantly, it has been an annoyance, that everytime I do better, a lot of people push my buttons or do tiny annoyances that seriously disturb me, or are actually not tiny and dangerous. Like letting my new appartement get full of smoke is no fun, especially as all of my clothes are there, and Iâd waste all the time drying and cleaning it only to let it smell like smoke, and people will think I smoke, itâs very bad. Iâve been getting into feng-shui and BaZi right?
The direction is clearly not good for me, even in feng-shui, still currently I am more perceptive about the subtle issues of post-modern types of discriminatory actions, as they seem to hurt the most and cause the largest issues for all camps. I am mostly done with politics I am only asking curious question to create a larger worldview, but I do my best to not converge fully to one opinion I donât think that is good, yet what I notice is night and day in terms in treatement of others.
The supplements and exercises Iâve been doing certainly improved my health, and all of that BaZi jazz is quiet good for archetypal work or recognizing mythic layers of reality, especially if culture is mixing more and more, we get more and more people from korea, japan etc. and China, itâs relatively diverse, yet not as intensely as in my old hometown, itâs a bit odd, sometimes I really appreciate the art in gaming, especially with the BaZi stuff and me always liking this anime things, and recognizing it, and how itâs co-opted by purist, they have no idea the whole idea of purity if archetypally speaking is in the elements, not about untruthful social ideas.
At times as I wouldâve purchased that game back in 2022 when it came out, I felt as if my soul contributed to a lot of novelties and story-telling, yet the worse my life got at times the worser the story of the bigger things, but if I get into it an appreciate even the bad things, things turn out better.
Otherwise, the nootropic schedule I have with the food I can take, will most likely allow me to work with things better where I am balancing the cleansing of the nervous system, the biggest things that are still active there is from a lot of bullying, due to people sensing the scar and some nuances that I see archetypally, there are some answers from Integral Iâd like to dig in deeper to, as when I talk to right-winged populist, very often they yearn to be convinced still, but idk how long that will hold on, itâs very good that the video game industry sends subtle images that are more progressive not even political, as the whole thing can be quiet fâed not everyone is perfect.
The water rower I bought was most likely the best purchase I made, I had a strange dream today, also but they very often come back I somehow donât remember it, but overall I see major improvements, mostly due to ashwaganda, itâs very good to be able to adapt to stress. I still have to prep some stuff, also itâs very good to diminish the effects of drinking tap water if I would plan that out Iâd go crazy, but as of right now itâs better to focusing on being more conscious, and getting more synchronicstic events down, some psychdelics at times, and skill development, and proper nutrition, and getting rid of 3âish envy cultures or strong 4 envy cultures, that are unsupportive and stuck in yellow sandcastle building in some sense, this causes some issues culturally imo
A Post-Truth World
Politics, Polarization, and a Vision for Transcending the Chaos)
By Ken Wilber
I bought the audiobook of this
This is intersting as I read some of the stuff, especially as I notice and things calm down, and I was very focused on training integral things, and how it plays out and I really really crave to listen to an Jung archetype audiobook, due to the tribalizations and simply the benefits of including stage purple vitality, without expending it and the synchronicities I found with mythological astrology, especially chinese astrology, and eventually dive deeper into the Enneagram roots in Christianity if the info from GPT is correct.
What I mainly notice, is that integral development when I feel is active, is highly accepted by many, and appreciated by many, I never ever talked to so many right populist guys in polarizing spaces, and they never said a damn negative word to me, even when I told them all of my takes and opinions the same problem remains, and I contemplated how important it is to function from an integrative soul level, and obviously studying all of this is better, yet at times the past and my family karma, is catching up and the collective karma, especially of Germany, already puts me in the right places at the Yellow/Blue edge of development I call it, the video is quiet good, but goes into the core gaslighting type of things I experienced when I started dating and integrating Deida, a lot of stage red impulses and lust, a lot of control behaviour to appeal to piety, the course I did from Eban Pagan cutted right into the Yellow survavalist culture imo, with spinning and reconstructing and progressing business success after business success as soon as the toolbox changes. I was fairly lucky, I notice still the best thing is to work on the physicality and energy, and to detach from mind and move into soul, and find the right stage of where the soul is working at and appreciate spirit states also at each structure.
I find these videos insightful to see how it ressoantes from TikTok, to video game culture ignorance, to the rise of simply online toxicity. I am more prone to look at the archetypal and drive lense, even when I have a lot of resentment towards people of higher development, as they just constantly I feel as if they plan their great escape, and sort of avoid the problem, some of the more âadvanced and post-modern progressives and not post-modern regressivesâ are interested in or simply pure integralists that are above vanity and clouding shame in vanity, this is sort of the current karmic layer I am working out. There is a psychdelic depth resurfacing very often, where I feel as if the internal wildness for example becomes that type of abundance and depth many seek, yet that will fly out of the window as soon as the sheer arrogance of integralist and post-modernists as well as the core issue of envy is being evoked. I find it weird, especially with more hardnossed stuff such as quantum mechanics and to look at this, as the underbelly projections as technican and engineer and the sacral chakra that is triggered is still dumbfounding to me, like I donât quiet get it, but itâs present and I have a huge scar since birth there and it#s very very difficult for others to admit and speak about âenergetic/state/structureâ structure in that sense, as the state is the perception, the structure is the rung itself or worldview or knowledge and the energetic blueprint is the either emotional intelligence or pure energy of that state that can also be read, at times I donât quiet know how to frame this I am glad itâs October, there is a lot of strange holistic science I donât quiet get, but the umber/orange shadow is most likely the cause also partially of this arrogance that caused the regress, as they see this as the highest due to collective gaslighting if your 3-4 years below 30 and above 30 most likely. As yellow lacks any spiritual practice from my point of understanding and also undervalues it most likely, turqouise includes some spiritual practice as far as I know, and there is still the orange/Green or Orange/green denialism of spirituality, and just seeks the psychdelic experience, and that can be an eye-opener, yet they are the most subtely abusive of higher stages, I am glad I found BaZi as every type of animal projection became a mythical joke to me even with partial truths.
I donât quiet know how to frame all of this for dating, as I notice we in Europe have a very strong âdegenerative marxist underbellyâ that appreciates EVERYTHING that is holistic, and to the benefit of humanity, it just has to feel as if itâs HOLISTIC grace, and then there is some co-option of orange most likely also to the good.
There are some key factors in online spaces, where I notice itâs not good to associate yourself with that, as itâs about prooving results and providing results, as well as the non-judgemental judging, and itâs odd I had farirly high integral/greenish people working with, yet a lot of more orange/blue leaning bosses and leaders, and also once a pure turqouise impulse, and I rode that morphic field, yet the core competencies of this I was more at a green/Teal edge, and noticed the envious of many at the same green/Teal, liminial zone of transgression. Now when I meditate I am fully at yellow, my brain just proccesses all of this very very fast, till some deeper thinking is required, and also the yin/yang integration as well as the stuff I did, the core issue is I am looking for some ways to connect more to the holistic cybernetic wave, idk if this is the right-term, but yes things are moving if slowly in a positive direction.
Still all of this and some core impulses of me will evolve and still revolve around orange excellence, yet I personally notice it takes an integral stance not this exellence to jump through hoops, but the actual holistic intelligence to value exellence for the greater good as if itâs beauty in spirit as the highest, and at more medium expressions a value of exellence for the global good, act global think global for local in that sense, as I am not very good at explaining small details as I find new issues often, but I stopped engaging in reading mostly, I am more prone to audiobooks and meditative training, food and setting myself up for retreats and reading more quality again, I donât have the stamina to read so many books, and there are other subtle belief systems I am working at for eventually making that move, as itâs quiet weird to explain my intuition and I am currently a bit in love with BaZi and the insights I gather from there to apply it for archetypal work and yin & yang integrations, as a lot of stuff simply comes from the east, and there is little but scientific explaniations in the west, and that for me is mostly health, current A.I & C.S, software microtechnology still, eventually energy, but that activates here a strong exellence underbelly of competition that can be good, yet fuck if people become aware of their energy sometimes it suprises me how powerful they are and what issues that genereates, I often thought like a kid like this people whoâre very âlust energeticâ even in goodness they pull something in that is not good as in cycles etc.
Generally after looking a bit into integral psychology and seeing where soul starts from I donât have it exactly in mind which map it was that it starts from post-modern and that it includes the next 2 higher stages or untill violet, I thought I could interalize the map and do some research also at one point, as of right now there is still to much ego pointing out and not soul pointing out from older generations especially, that does not contribute to growth, these are mostly also people bad with children, as they yearn to form the ego and not work from a soul integration standpoint and subtle energy.
Idk, I could definitely listen to it more and simply contemplate, some stuff, yet come more from Truth of soul and love, instead of ego pride and worldviews etc. even if itâs integral.
So, there is this phenomena of immigrants and their xenophobic and ethnocentric worldviews and the injustice I was in the last year now I have another neighbour and itâs constantly the post-modern and ethnocentric waves of injustice as in not caring and many immigrants not even populist being straight-up discriminatory and going agains the law and any type of purification work I do, while there is the subtle nuance of the majority priviledge also, I started to document it this time again and I am just quiet if this continues I will sue him or her, as they are beneath human tbh, they steadily act and I saw this first hand with my professor who was born in the east and an actual integralist to some extend who canât make progress, due to the constant regressing and stabilization of what once has been gained, if this unironically is going to happen and more and more cases will come up.
I decide to also plan more and to let go more, I made another video of the guy, and to document this process to the extend possible online, many do not respect the law ever since Trump came into power, and transgressed it with the type of âDamsel in Distressâ notion when Obama was in power, oh look I got problems I require extra care or some Democrat, this is a gross-generalization. I feel there is a subtle wave where I am able to engage with some content more on an intellecutal/soul and spiritual level coming from an integral place, yet in the recent years even right-winged populist had more empathy for me than immigrants or whatever that exactly is, yet they abuse any type of power behaviour and constantly compare themselves. I include it as meditative practice, also many of these people are violent, or post-modern covert violence breaching were cases can be more complicated or psychological warfare, idk why this happens so often, when I recover, yet they seem to take their extra-sepcial needs exactly then when I am starting to make progress or I build an actual home, but I have never witnessed such a huge regress, due to immigrants and the religion of many immigrants as well as worldview, I donât really know what to think about it, the intenisty of diversity for sure can help, yet at home with all the b.s that I witnessed. It causes troubles if I would not include it in my practice and document it, nobody would believe it, itâs legit the most soulless beigns, that are soul deprived and can only see their soul in their own ethnocentric view. This goes for white ethnocentricism also, what I heared in recent years and witnessed should be banned, yet itâs all over the internet, let alone the idea of reverse racism, and the offenses there, is like a post-modern inabillity to come to terms with their culturual heritage and we get at best post-modern irony or integral irony, and these happen out of normal! Circumstances, if I find some examples Iâll document it, especially as I noticed doing 1h of meditation and planning and simply living will do me better, there is so much I could say and write, yet in the end itâs the hostile family, ethnocentric, social darwinistic worldview that takes every rigth and power, and I sensed that as a kid, as soon as someone has more power, itâs not even elitist selection, itâs simply got more power, do more, and I have my problems and rights so fuck yours, instead of I got problems does not mean I bother others with my self-rightous interest, especially in small ways, yes I do it at times also, but if it bothers someone I stop, I canât know every limit, but itâs horrible and very often itâs immigrants, even the words horrible etc. I noticed are more promiment in right-winged populism, like I stopped voting as itâs so bad, most politicians are failures and the social connotations and pictures are also a failure idk, itâs odd there is a lot of opportunity, yet I notice as soon as I do better and go after it jealousy in these subtle expansive ways just comes into my life, and itâs the worst possible thing.
They take the law by might everytime and think that is right and fair, thank Donald Trump and play innocent. I never ever had such negative opinions about this, but they seem so populist themselves, I canât help myself to be dumbfounded by what I witness.
I was able to enjoy some dubstep and arctic type of style stuff again, as it reminded me even the imagery abou some core symbols that kept popping up and themes of humanity I got interested in with all this cybertech, aliens, exploring worlds, artificial reality, drones, a.i, transhumanism etc.
I started to resonate with it again, especially as I feel better to see myself as more and more human, and less and less animal before the distinctions become to political, yet generally I notice I am glad I focused on seeing beauty, as that alone lead my to more Truth, and Goodness idk it came also more naturally to me.
There are some core spiritual beauty and holism truths that keep happening, as of right now I will plan my entire week, and day again by hour at least and be spontaneous, to have a framework of time, yet do as I yearn to do, the last year I celebrated spontaneity so much mingleing with different folks, yet none of them had any standards in regard to well-being, and this continues, the ones who have it integrated are mostly post-modernist working on the wound of boomers independence and narccicism and power, I feel as if I am overcoming that by focusing on beauty.
Found peace through Truth, also especially exercise and meditation, beautiful lyrics.
Cybernetics and the Intelligence of Love
I watched the new episode it thought itâs great, especially the part of identifiyng with political idealology and there are some core dynamics I notice in integralist that had a clear ray ray background to what I experience in more liberal circles and the whole memery of there exists, and they put you back into a wound, not to heal, yet to put you there and leave you there and contemplate their own doing, instead of owning their own pain. The whole integral youâre green, your blue, youâre red etc. The whole idea of staging, even if at the beginning I thought, a lot of these wounds have been done by so called integralist, who yearn to explain the world to you, but have no clue about the complexity of all of it, but claim they have the overarching big picture itâs just an opinion very often, and the envy and competition for being integral is surreal at times, even in online and offline spaces or zoom groups for exellence or achievments which clouds the whole perception of what integral is, of how I experienced my own integral development, and the steady attacks make no sense whatsoever, the theory or science behind integral will never ever be perfect, and even if the drive for perfection is normal, there are some core issues I see that most integralist missed, I did not dive into as everyone demonized it, and idk how often others hinted at it for e.g Keith Witt etc. but at times when I look at integral I see the core issue of envy and one-upmanship, and I never ever wouldâve thought that the whole âfragilityâ idea with Obama etc. that type of wound I feel or hope, I never liked hope my entire life hope is a huge lie in my eyes, inspiration is something else, yet how much is projected upon me where my own integral development after my Regress even comes online, itâs like I canât stop it, and the core issue is it attracts people constantly and that is not good, only because I feel good or I am inspired after my meditation practice etc. it does not mean I have all the answers or solutions and in reality, when nobody knows integral, but acts integral integral simply wins, I donât know there could be more of a friendly comeptition of mental integral topics in terms of quizes etc. so you can get a feeling for the body of thought instead of competing for the ideascape, I had plenty of this and by far the only people I would trust to speak my understanding of integral with fully would be my old psychotherapist, Keith Witt, and Shinzen Young mostly, otherwise I would not trust to many after what happend and keeps happening as I see worse coming, and I will do my best to get away from this spiritual shitstorm of old ideas, especially with some stuff and some key things of seeing for e.g when someone has had family and is free from family the person can devote him/herself way way deeper into Truth, similar to what Deida speaks about, instead of the umber underbelly of family itâs not even at proper orange anymore, there are some green/Orange spaces, yet imo these people often come from middle class or lower middle class family, unironically the most integral potential I see for development is with lower middle class and upper lower class family, as they donât sell their soul to survival or to their politicial boyscouts, let alone how that feels in the lower 3 chakras, mostly I would like to get integral down to a point theoretically to how I also experience it with some nuance, where I could write a post at times or journal at times, simply to get a message out for self-expression, and not my narccistic showtime, I feel like many are prone to the issue of performance and pressure, as they want someone to replace them or recycle them or recycle what they did, and instead of building healthy reformations we get BROKEN LANGUAGE, by people whose first language is that and a lot of anger tied to the assimilation, as simply the entertainment industry of this day and age or of what takes peoples pain away and advances culture is not anymore Mozart, Bach or some british pop-band (at best this is the case), itâs mostly TikTok, Facebook and what is shared there or YouTube and Instagram.
What I notice generally is to let go of identtiy completely and any teaching regarding this, as people who had serious upbringings, especially in our post-modern and modern times create a lot of underbelly ruckus and notions, as they are co-opted by what is depicted in the internet by what is otherwise simply something beautiful such as interracial relationships, and yes I said interracial, imagine I was one with an interracial/international person myself! How does that hold up to the mental fabric of social theory?
There is a certain level of bitterness and a sort of extraction I notice, and I still require better experiecne with more human people, instead of what I experienced, people dismissing Obama, my mother making 180 subtle turns in terms of subtle expressions, right-winged populist liking me more and befriending me more than liberals, who just act out this DO/7k archetype pattern and I am the first one looking for these archetypes imo in an integral fashion at least statting it, and I saw some nuances, matter of fact Donald Trump has this!!! This is the exact pattern that is such an annoyance at times and can be quiet deadly if not conscious, I stopped charting people to gain insights about ther personality, as I notice a different underbelly and I will get to Jung in terms of audiobooks reading it, I will most likely feel to bad and end up in some ashram or so, but I enjoy archetypal and form work, or Gestalt type of work.
All in all even with Palantier, and all of this Power stuff, it reminds me of the power lesson I ddi with Wilber in the course of non-judgement and holding transrational power, in that sense I often prefer this, but ever since I get a lot of poking at the underbelly which can just be energy, as I am injured at this place and stuff accumulates there I canât pinpoint or dissolves or I have an interpretation etc. and I can clearly see how that distorts or lifts consciouness and some issue regarding beauty, the good, the true.
I might write more thought-provoking stuff, in a few years to also in that sense show-up, as the issue of showing up involves discrimination racism, and being tyrannical children hence me, is not good, I had very very high standards for myself, and I know everonye enjoys letting go and having some fun, yet what I often find is what Keith Witt generates and what I could learn from Deida are top priorities I never realized post-issue realationships, and acting more from transrational power are key things I can work on in the background.
There are some things I am mulling over in terms of studying and talking to the right people, as there is this perfectonist stage blue underbelly that has a subtle reincarnation type of race theory notion to what Steiner thought? I am not sure on this, but generally speaking filtering this with some a.i tool that is not to literal and can properly filter and give me a more nuanced answer would be good, I am not talking about grok 3 now, as people are going crazy with sexuality and obviously, this is mostly from the white snobish semi-intellectual Elon herd followers who just follow value like rippers in Borderlands 4.
We might require 50 years of advancement in humanity to speak about the issues of Epstein and Trump, yet Jordan Peterson as well as some others have hinted at it even at the beginning and I was shocked researching it during my bachelors, as what drives this type of attraction or thought, as itâs so heavily ingrained in my German consciouness I canât fucking tell you, and I am half American, and the whole idea and denial of it and even the law etc. and my very liberal upbringing showed me still the weirdness of it that I see played out in the political area, and mostly itâs sort of the inabillity imo the engagin in chakra 2 play in terms of roles between two adults, but tbh idk what that looks like and how liberating it can be, by the stories that are purpoted through Epstein, especially now in connection with Trump, and these are old and weird intuitions Iâd mostly would like to see some science shedding light upon this, so the culture can assimilate itself better, and even if we all know it sub-consciously or unconsciously, itâs a big signal that this stuff is coming out and it seems to move more towards all the republican b.s and family orientation and I feel like I am smeered as the individual, even P-Diddy had family no? Like children etc. I find it weird, yet I also feel guilt and that guilt is collective quiet interwoven, and it played itself out and FUCKED ways, and i said no to that, and at times I am going to be blunt I fall into the trap when I watch porn, for e.g I watched some orgy (I never like this stuff like barely I do or simply to fall asleep with some b.s) I look up the actress for my BaZi research and I find out they are sisters, and this is on a âcleanâ website, and I thought wow, what can I even watch? I am glad I looked this up, I bet X and Pornhub etc. are one of the biggest sex offender gatheres possible, and I was looking at this site for art not super sensual art, yet Iâd be impecunious (absolutely gorgeous word) I was thinking about learning how to hack etc. and do all of this enneagram masculine 3 fantasies of being the conscious change agent in 3w4 performative fashion, that hit me also from my professor ( I am sorry mentioning him in this context) and in the sense Epstein embodied a very deep and dark sinister trickster archetype I would like to see some expert psychologist unravel like with how many people in power did he mess with in order to pull that off? Is one sex offender really that bad?
Somehow all of these criminal contemplation topics and the topics of actual goodness have been differted ever since Kardashian Libra Booty as a prison reformist, and I still was involved in a lot of corruption from that type of people where they hide in performative: âPERFECT PERFECT PERFECTâ I only care about my tiny tiny perfect family idc. about you, they just dive into the pain fish for their advantage and abuse, like with my phone call provider, I have never been lead so wrong, and then I had this normal more yin quiet guy who actually still had subtle faith in goodness now giving me a better contract, instead of âASDKHJSADJKHASDKJAHDKJASHDKSAUDHAKJSDHJASHDKJSADHKJASDHKSH No not possible HASDIJKHASDASDHASDHKADHKASHDAKSJDHKASHDAKSDHKASâ this is an exageration, the point is itâs like the IW or father archetype is out of control very often, and itâs just about denisty, reign and power and very tribalistic things
I wonder when this clonwery fucking stops, but we have Musk, with me I mean the world.
There are some synchronistic or things or slightly more idk how to call it for sketpics simply patterns that evoke themselves I constantly see the name of the ex of mine Alicia in some abbrevation, in relation to sex very often or some competent yellowish individual, but also totally aloof, and today her brother played and one person helped me in a video game and actually helped me with all the problems I have physically, yet is oblivious to it, the person simply does the next stage to some extend, with all the ridiculous limits I face, for e.g. I helped her & her family (notice I donât value family if I would value compassion!!! even above family!!! I am so done with the Nazi Family value and I really love relationships i might mix these two and look to engage in that more and grow that more into a turqouise form or what I experienced in turqouise s.d fashion to the extend possible) instead of just engaging with stage blue mastery, and the find ways that I felt I integrated with higher mastery at teal+ that I see more with Justin Sungs teachings of learning, especially the abillity to create mental models, and the intellectual snobism that is out, that I see in many medicine people, yet they are prone to folklore, anyhow⌠this is very gross.
The democrats should finally be able to pick-up the democrats and especially republicans and non-partial voters finally, I would finally also be intersted to study this in quietness and not be a political instrument for people to use, I wonder what teal shadows emerge as soon as more of it is here, but yeah idk I would be happy if a part of that underbelly is finally lifted and I can relate more in that purple tribal ocean of humanity more without feeling guilty of what I represent.
All in all for me this is quiet positive, yet what I fear what will happen that some type of liberal gatekeeper will be present, we donât have the holistic perspective as some have in the east I sense with skill, we gatekeep and this is just online behaviour idk just seeing this gives me some internal joy, not out of glee, yet out of situational comedy and existential humour of myself, I donât even think Trump is that bad, what Musk did is and was way way way way worse for me, yet he basically stun locked the post-modernists, and I can even relate to this more emotionally, but yeah idk I would require a Joe Rogan podcast to speak through all of this.
Legal constraints: What normally prohibits domestic military operations
- Posse Comitatus Act (1878)
This federal law generally prohibits the U.S. Army, Air Force, and other federal armed forces from participating in domestic civilian law enforcement activitiesâunless Congress expressly allows it. Just Security+3Brennan Center for Justice+3Default+3 - Exceptions & statute-based authority
The main exception is the Insurrection Act (various sections of Title 10) which allows the President, under specific conditions (insurrection, civil disorder, etc.), to deploy armed forces domestically for law enforcement functions. Default+3Brennan Center for Justice+3Just Security+3 - Guard forces under state control (Title 32 status)
When National Guard troops are under state control (i.e. not âfederalizedâ), the Posse Comitatus Act typically doesnât apply, so they can perform law enforcement functions under state law. Default+3Brennan Center for Justice+3American Civil Liberties Union+3 - âProtective powerâ / inherent constitutional authority claims
Some legal arguments assert the President has inherent power to use the military to protect federal property, personnel, or functions even on U.S. soil. Whether that is lawful (and how broadly) is contested. Democracy Docket+3Just Security+3Brennan Center for Justice+3 - 10 U.S.C. § 12406 & Trumpâs memorandum
Trump has invoked 10 U.S.C. § 12406 (a statute relating to calling the National Guard into federal service) as part of his authority to deploy Guard troops domestically. But § 12406 does not clearly authorize using active-duty military in civilian law enforcement, nor by itself is generally seen as a full waiver of Posse Comitatus. Just Security+2Brennan Center for Justice+2
What is happening now / recent developments
- Trump has issued memoranda to federalize the National Guard and deploy troops to cities like Los Angeles to support ICE operations, protect federal property, etc. The roles the troops are allowed to perform are said to be limited (e.g. protective functions, not direct arrests). Just Security+2Newsweek+2
- He has not (in at least some cases) formally invoked the Insurrection Act. Newsweek+2Brennan Center for Justice+2
- Several legal challenges have been filed, arguing that these deployments violate the Posse Comitatus Act or exceed executive authority. American Civil Liberties Union+5TIME+5Democracy Docket+5
- In one case (California), a federal judge ruled that the deployment to Los Angeles violated law (Posse Comitatus) and issued an injunction limiting how those troops may be used. Just Security+5TIME+5The Washington Post+5
So, is it true? (i.e. is Trump attempting inland operations, and are they legal)
- Yes, it is true that he is attempting inland military or Guard deployments for domestic purposes.
- Legally, these actions are controversial and likely exceed traditional boundaries under current law. Many legal analysts and courts view some of these deployments as violations of the Posse Comitatus Act, or at least pushing the envelope.
- The legality hinges largely on whether statutes like the Insurrection Act, or exceptional doctrines (protective power, inherent authority), properly applyâarguments which courts have not yet fully resolved in all cases.
If you like, I can go through specific cities or operations (e.g. Chicago, L.A., D.C.) and tell you which ones have been blocked or allowed so far. Do you want me to do that?
Also the trans-issue etc. got so heavily politized, due to Elon Musks stance idk what to take of it, I saw some pretty violent stuff on the net, but I seldom visit such sites, at times when I want to see the most normal fucked stuff, and I go back to what is presented in the news itâs somehow connected, idk what to say.
I copy-pasted this, our German news do me no better service than serving panic value. I have to GPT things or do some deeper research for even some baseline harmony. They just tell you what they do not why or how, I use gmx, and the politcized stuff has become worse, somehow the democrats are supposd to win some stuff, but idk what actually will happen and Trump will do this best to prevent it, but he will get some shit till the soccer world cup comes next year⌠where the entirety of europe will watch the unfoldment of politics again and the tournament ofc.
This has by far been the best episode so far, I meditated to it, as I started fairly young and independent with all of this work, and itâs sort of the excesses of new age spirituality what is true scientifically, and all of the nuances of higher stages, I get a lot of impulses from 5.0 ever since I began my interest in software and many others also, yet the whole political field and dilema made it at times difficult, to fully workout the constructivist nature, as I realized more and more, how does the structure I create have any value, and what others value is not neccsarily conscious, and to give others the experience of it, you even have to partially sell or cater to the interest of the person, so they experience that.
This generally gave me some interest again into studying these maps and not judge out of fear of missing out or comparission or that the kosmic weaver intent, and the relationships I had, had tinges of this present, and my yearning to transcend, include and weave different fields and how energetic my reality has become, in contrast to the pale reality many experience, as well as made me more aware of my own green shadow that has come online where I watched this psychologist, which I am quiet convinced is having a lot of takes for people at 4.5, eventually 5.0, yet I experienced it so differently, seeing the map from OâFallon makes more sense, as whenever I approach the Turqouise or 5.0 stage or I am stable there, I feel I am working as an individual in the collective, and the more I am leading the more active my experience becomes, the interpenetrative reality, I fundamentally have the whole time as long as I am discussing things with others, yet as soon as I engage the entire spiral or rungs and act it out from the rung where I am at, the more active and transpersonal my experience become, hence I am transcending a lot of stuff, especially time ceases in the collective sense, there is just the time of awareness itself, and not the mechnical counting of time, or the analytical process, especially also music helps me to pull me out, I am using a lot of tools.
Recently I medtiated for 30 mintues just in pure silence with my laptop running in the background and I clearly felt that I am moving into the experience of timelesness, more and more and that nihilism and pain associated with it, and also the pure love/bliss or white light, and I thought okay itâs better to read both ROT and OâFallons interpretations, as due to some archetypal stuff, I am a bit unsure how differently people perceive, and I know from all the BaZi stuff, that eventually functions at mythic? All of this amber alchemical stuff, and some takes of Wilber are so fking nuanced I bet most miss it, I corrected others also online, just by reading carefully, and the guy is practically according to this my goat blade hence person I should avoid, but at a 4.5 minimum perspective itâs the person I should seek out as he/she will have a different perspective of all of it, and the nuance of it is very important.
What I notice personally at 4.5 equality, and parity is the competition issues of envy, as envy is the first time touched and transcended, and the more youâre able to be the individual at turqouise the less youâre impacted by envy. I donât know these are my own contemplations so far, I have a lot of constructive thoughts at 5.0, also through the usage of psychdelics, and relationships.
This for example Iâve been going through this on the weekend I bet 30-40 videos on my water rower and I am convinced that it has some integral takes, when it comes to the issue of dating and believs, as so much is in this hunter and gatherer provider frame, and he helps with 4.5 attraction imo and perspecitves, some of it I donât agree for instance that porn can be helpful or to not masturbate, as I donât think itâs reasonable and I posted the Sadghuru video on this as I kept thinking about this for a couple of years now, and itâs more for me how attuned your life is, and how well you can use that power to create something significant, and I am not very good at it, my sexual energy is odd, it fluctuates to much in intensity, that I prefer to do this when I am 20-30 years older, as it opens a strong spiritual dimension for me as does sex itself, as I almost left my body twice just randomly having sex, as I was so elated and the compliments mustâve went to my soul, also the social projections and competition nowadays with all of the porn consumption just takes the intensity of sex and skill up a notch, the irony is what is thought here often is already the answer, but the bait still has to be there.
I donât know where else to go the biggest issue to development is post-modern moral at the moment and not proper integration of yin&yang polarity and power in that theme etc. The guy has a lot of good material, I meditated to some of it to get some beliefs out, generally I am working on erasing a lot of beliefs currently. I wait also for more and better integral content idk. I am quiet done with some things, and especially some issues also of 4.5 and I will study this more to some extend over the years and simply do some of the lower stages stuff, as there are for sure cravings, and I got attacked a lot, even from the most developed people as the collective field most likely was fked, that will 100% be represented in karma idk how else, itâs strange I leave it at that.
Also the synchronicities symbolically also increase heavily as well as I donât get why people like Paul Check attack Deepak Chopra, and generally he is one of the biggest grifters Iâve seen in the recent years I trust my gut, and I am done with this guys influence, I am doing my best to get this out, I am not attacked by nanobots etc. Itâs so fking luny at times, idk what to say about it, also the hatred of young men, and the subtelty of it. I am glad I found Leo Guras content to counter some of this b.s at times, in the end idk how advanced the guy is, but itâs sort of the same thing, in the end somewhere he was a bit more right than the others, but with health idk simply and that perpetuates the problem for me.
This is super interesting, yet my own meditations and just having learned from Shinzen spoilered a lot of stuff, and being interested in Rupert Sheldrake, itâs a bit unfortunate I faced a lot of karma tied to relationships, and the core issue of the human condition, especially when it comes to power and the value exchanges to support others etc.
I donât know if I watch the entire thing, yet it touches on some key things I definitely want to see at one point, as I looked also into some history and had some thoughts about certain things, and quiet frankly I would fundamentally have built the core units of the software function of a starship, that is at least the level of difficulty Iâd describe some of this âselection process ideasâ Iâve been having the recent days, and I am mostly again directly looking to let go of it.
My meditations also are quiet nice, yet I have been contemplating human value and some perspectives, and relationship dynamics as it takes a lot of energy aware from the self-awareness of body/heart connection, and just generally the whole issue of the value games humans play, and I thought how selection oriented all of this is, and I am deconstrucing a lot and had some thoughts about taking some personal development exercises out of my vision sheet/program, generally itâs been a huge issue contemplating karma, as I got into all of this alchemical stuff, rather on accident and the semiotics of it are highly relevant, and I notice some of it as I feel it in my body are odd, or at odds so to speak.
Genereally I feel well, yet I sort of reframe a lot of things, as I have seen the sort of shadow side, and even the foolhardiness and the core enjoyment of contextual hierachy and the point of requiste variety, and the generally issue of power, and the point of the enneagram briefly.
There is way way way way way more I could write about this, yet itâs been a core issue with the role of power & sex in the recent years, with the ones who canât stop their excessive lust seeking or find more intelligent and harmonizing ways to engage with it, generally speaking, I still see and saw some issues with all of this, and Iâve been wondering how I can sharpen my perception, just get away from any type of body of thought as knowledge and memory irregardless how important it is, the level of conflict it causes and has caused in my life, I notice I automatically deselect the people that do not choose me, not even out of a protective mechanism and yes sure I do this also, yet mostly to take away the tension of value propositions that donât fit the narrative/worldview I currently have, and mostly how I can be more in awareness and still engage in the form dimension and let go of teachings that bring nothing but despise and hatred, because of the issue of projecting concret reality onto others etc.
There is a lot of karma I am shedding, itâs a bit odd, a lot is happening, and I thought about and contemplate with A.I some of these subjects the whole gender thing etc. and the core issue of life form reality and all of this seemed rather wane to me till it started waxing, due to fear and the fear of survival and the era of transhumanism that is coming to some extend, I donât really know how possible it is to deselect oneself from the morphic field of being human and attune oneself more to consciouness, yet it feels really good if my subtle body getâs causal meditative hits, there is no karam and that is beautiful, yet the perpetuation of karma wonât do the trick I donât think we can ever outsource the idea of selection, choosing and having a choice sounds so different, and I bet there is a lot of history to these ideas, yet thorugh the education finished or not, I had a completely different influx of ideas, it makes it tricky to speak about this, yet as so far I am mostly looking what to let go of, I am unsure how contributive this post is, yet mostly shedding karma is a lot a lot of value that is generated and I really enjoy this, there are some core issues I am also letting go of where people play games, and I am still thinking about it, but yeah the last years have been rough and it wonât get easier, I just donât really know what to think.
I had also some other thoughts, yet I am keeping this to myself, the current thing that I am thinking mostly likely also many before is I am curious if humanity will deselect itself because of these negative worldviews or if the expansiveness of human consciouness itself in the micro & macrocosm will cause use to finally expand into different dimension and galaxies, very curious, very nice also to get my sci-fi mind going, and get away from some of the karmic imprints I have been seeing as of recently.
Sometimes itâs weird the new episode âThe Highest Stages of Human Flourshingâ there are points in this episode for e.g the 5.0 coffee addicted construct aware guy, I find it sometimes when I question myself and then I have to solve tasks that require constructive orderly thinking, but not in a mechnical algorithmical way, but in an actual free constructive type of way amazin how fast my brain ever since I hit the integral stage accumulates these things, by not deviating from the mistake of being at that stage, hence I donât perform integral I act with what arising and play the entire spiral, ideally now regressing towards a red/blue interaction, as these would be in modern language most likely and internet speak, gatekeepers, if you have open gates people, people who speak with the Truth that is in all 4 quadrants even if they are not fully integral or integrally unaware, itâs very pleasent, especially if they are open-minded and donât force the green reality onto people.
At times the whole digitalization spectrum made more people integral than I thought, especially gaming culture but the core issue remains of some of this, what I notice the more requiste variety I build in systems, interconnect system for e.g to speak from my PC setup and link my phone and pc, and just keep other tech out of my systems for e.g hence making myself addicted to external structures, I was so adamanet about being addicted to external structures I completely forgot the idea of intrinsic motivation and that I am doing this any of this out of the intrinsic motivations of my values, as people steadily adopted my values subtely, as they were looking for inspiraiton!!!
I did not entirely break this cycle the only thing I noticed is the more I have networks that value different things inherently and I can learn by their contextual value hierachy, the more this layer is deconstructed and refined, as well as the more I learn and reflect upon the intrinsic value of my value, as well as the integrity of my own value, for e.g mastery in contrast to family or intelligence in contrast to knowledge or perception in contrast to wisdom or love in contrast to joy or transcendence in contrast to awareness or consciouness in contrast to perception etc.
I completely forgot to see the intrinsic value and remind myself of it, as I was so focused on creating outer reality that reflects my inner needs, I forgot to look for alternatives that are already present and cooperate well with my values, especially if others force their values onto you, focusing on detachment and ones own body of thought and values that creates the value you intrinsically know from the present, past and future that this is the intrinsic thing that got you going, the activity feels so rewarding in itself itâs immense, even the reminders that reinforce that requiste variety.
I still have many roadblocks, and some qualms, especially watching to many videos, and the crybaby attacks from yin-water people of thinking for oneself, as they have some odd quality of corruption that is quiet annoying to deal with, even if they are right about stuff, they sort of distort the point of intrinsic value, generally I noticed how these mythical archetypes differ more and more by charting and watching people, as many of them are blind to their own mythical tendencies and project that onto others. While for example yang water dominant people seem to be able to mitigate everything and are more prone to imbalances or just being to state dependent in my experience, and any other yong shen characteristic etc. I did not notice as yet so far I see it a bit more in myself, and for e.g the yang earth yong shen is very good in dealing with yin water people, yet they are often suprised by the core ideas of the elemental fusion I perceive, generally I do my best to interpret from the literal, and not treat the literal as the literal, and see the symbolic as a symbolic representation of a variety, instead of a symbolic representation that is simply the symbolic representation, hence concrete literal meaning, especially when it comes to mythical topics, for e.g. I would personally never be good at interpreting the bible, the more I read history of Horus and Jesus, and other symbolical religious creatures, the archetypal value let alone the little bit of chinese I learned with the word 垡 representing virute and the country or germany the day dreams and vision I have are a bit odd, certainly odd in terms of it forcing the issue of perfection with a collective unconsciouness onto a country hence ĺžˇĺ˝ but at the sametime the penetration of it, makes it again open to refinement, especially as a yang metal daymaster the core idea of refinement was often projected onto me, and there are many alchemical teachings speaking about this, and some takes are to nihilisitc in their ideation where there is a core bitterness of science that I donât think represent a holistic spirit some of it is most likely a neccessary evil, but it mostly stems from a lack of ressources imo.
Generally speaking this has brought me some key ideas into existing mostly the bad teachings and deconstructing the bad teachings, as many of them stem from the subtle imprints of materalism, and I had a pretty rough projection game with others about this, where I steadily focused on the detachment and enjoyment of the material, that the ones who did the same steadily pushed the envelope, but with materalistic greed and not an impetus of joy, inspiration bliss and denounced all of this, as they cling to power and might, out of a very deep unconscious fear, if I am not going to do it who will?
This is mostly yin-water archetype driven imo, I donât know how else, as Iâve had in the last years a subtle fetishization of this and it also felt quiet nuturing to some extend to have that âpurpleâ healing quality, but before I speak more I looked at this from various sources, and if I do any healing meditation itâs often more prone to white light etc.
In the end I do focus on what works, but I have some doubts regarding the issue of energy and effort, when it comes to relationships and other stuff, mainly this was eventually also a core consideration from Shinzen the more and more I focus on this quality for various reasons, the more and more I realize I draw my value from different pots, and generally it fails me more than it does me any good, and itâs mostly about subtle creative breakthrough and working through subtle edges, but the raw âbrilliantâ type of refinement I feel from a yang water impulse ( I am using this symbolically) is way way more different and brutal, also more yang in nature, prone to getting more experience, and living more in the light, besides being a shadow dweller who inspires from his/her cave, but someone who engages and learns to play with the light, fire, and heat of existence and not burn oneself, but to build resilliance of mistakes, and also not hold this with pride, yet with actual integrity and self-love.
This was very interesting as an insight, as I still have the core issue of the more I integrate my values, intrnisically and then engage inthe external manifestation there are very subtle forms of theft, time, energy, favours being asked and even when I am selfless and do some of it, when I see the pattern of it, itâs different and itâs often to take me out of joy, itâs like a deep envious quality of joy, and the bitterness and revenge in this, instead of detachment and reengagement idk, just the whole quality and idea of joy or bliss seems to ride some people who have this depth obession crazy, and they loose character as they whip themselves instead of learning to actually flow with water, this is by far the largest mistake I made in the last 10 years, to go with ideas that are to cryptic, instead of following my own predispositions even if I donât make it or have different insights, as it was more a play between yangfire, yinfire and yangwater with earth as stabilizing element, and that is what many craved so much it was not good for me, like not at all.
Also to realize there is a sublte body connection and the whole framework of this, seeing some Mantak Chia stuff about it, especially with the scientism within mindfulness is rather an issue, at times as it produces the problem of meaninglessness and the core issue of treating every scientific thing literal, if you canât speak literal scientism! YOUâre a worthless imperfect piece of trash and human!!! You have no value!!!
But as soon as they hear a collecitve analogy of realism theyâd refert back and hence they only seek their own groups similar legit to mythical elements of some sort, idk how else to say of factions like Harry Potter for e.g. like attracts like, for me I realized the the core issue of this is the constant factor of prioritizng achievement and denigrating the energy of money, in orange achievement seekers and the covert sabotage of stage orange exellence drive, if itâs not construct aware.
idk how to say it, yet I am still sticking to some core principles especially and doing my best to break and open-up some patterns, and I am watching more behaviour and language of a person, if a person getâs a lot of joy out of inflicting pain and using glee and canât laugh about situational humour, and create such stuff organically similar to theater, raw dance or play, even if that might be offensive I donât regard that human as having good virtue or 垡 and I will not invest any time into that human or perspective not more than small bets, as they human canât stick or even properly stimulate him/herself to get over boredom and attacks others, again smth. I notice yin-water people do a lot.
Anyhow I stop here for now, I do my best to speak more freely and briefly and I notice I can value my health more, yet stay away from the endless greed of health and learn some things where I am reflecting upon, often times I learned the lesson, yet the integration of the principle in a flow minimum type of process is what is neccessary the judgement aspect is more about allocating ressources with networks and making proper value judgements about humans with respect, for me it works a bit different, but I am contemplating this as of now.
I find it weird to contemplate what is happening, sometimes I donât know I find new stuff, and I see the potential b.s some actually leave it and admit they are wrong, but some just hide their endless information like being rebel elites etc. and sort of canât really stick up for themselves idk I had some extremely strange experiences that most likely can only be validted my some level of science and having done the science in order to have the actual perspective of it, reading will help but I doubt itâs the same mind as someone who has actually done it and can wrap your mind around it, to the extend possible.
Idk I find it weird when I look stuff up, I find it less and less valueable, and actually just the idea of reading and sharing proper information, but I am contemplating the idea of effort, as itâs been paradoxical, especially the part of it in terms of dating and reading some realities, also currently I donât quiet know what to think about this, my mother is retiring in a couple of years my father is retired, and I contemplated the issue of transhumanism and everything science is doing, idk what actually will happen, but everything I noticed is people act with fear, and the whole thing at times I just notice more and more, the value of reading and researching and engaging in the full participation of being, instead of watching video after video, and keeping my feed clean from b.s.
America has also become strange, but I found some new good content generally speaking subscribing to billions of channels has been worth it to find new information, there are some subtelties I am contemplating where I notice this is actually good work and value, and just important to get the planet growing organically the whole idea of infotainment as content creators, but not the entertainment what you expect but just letâs say at minimum a good joe rogan episode where there is some level of quesitoning that kills the unconsciouness of humanity and gives a level of clarity and unconsciouss also.
Idk Iâve been contemplating this for a while, especially the sudden deaths working with my body accepting nothing really works, different teachings work for me, and the level of intensity and just the level of unconsciouness I am glad if a teacher can actually be playful and not have some level of spiteful humour because of human unconsciouness or shadow etc. idk I just find it weird to watch one evil and then the other, and to see how my opinions differ and also why, I refuse to engage with some of it, even if it had value.
Just something in me tells me after a while this is not good, mostly due to lack of leadership abillity, but that is nothing new and two archetypes I am contemplating, but itâs strange.
Otherwise I donât think many have the information I crawled through and itâs just a rough intuition on stuff, fundamentally some ideas about Truth just strike me wrong, as an excuse for not having a proper worldview and circumventing the isssue. Then again for some itâs a pointer as they enjoy more pain and concrete/subtle energy pain, and my body canât really handle that, there are several things I noticed just from being vegan in terms of morals and their contemplations and why some yogis went vegeterian or they recommend it, it does help to some extend to engage with this, but I am not joking you practically prepare yourself for mahasamdhi idk what else youâd actually do, but youâd be gone, instead of âminimizing sufferingâ etc. in order for others to benefit etc. reducing to maximizing to speak from a very simplistic value proposition or variable disposition.
Idk I find it weird, I mostly stopped caring, eventually on another day I write a better post, but fundamentally idk it, due to the things that are happening with my scar there are not many people I trust currently on subtle energy phenomena and agenda etc. Itâs odd but the experiences I had and what I went through I still have to see, I was way way way to fast and at the sametime I was still integrating some fundamnetals due to switchting majors. Itâs odd to see how humanity works in terms of collecitv consciouness and unconsciouness etc. I am very curious how this will play out in terms of rebirth as I found some good videos explaining this, but yeah itâs odd.