Integral Journal (once3800)

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I contemplated some stuff as of recently, as my morals got into the way of creating abundance, as a part of the business savyness I wanted to implement was pruned by the contract of the first company I worked at, as well as some of the partial truths I perceived about income etc. as my work would’ve gotten extremely honest, truthful, creative and technical as well as social.

It’s odd still to contemplate some stuff, as people are shooting subtle shots from my POV at each other, but in the recent times I learned when to watch it, what to watch and how to keep it out of my life, as well as integrating some more of the consciouness/spiritual or archetypal principles that can lead to success, in a more mystical manner, and not only the truth of what people perceive as truth.

I am still very curious about some stuff and how it will play out, as I faced so much subtle corruption and I stood up for my truth only to find out I was consistently right, and the hardest part was being absolutely silence or formless within this space, as people feed like demons on energy?

The entire point of this is, some people find only their type of truth and it does not 100% overlap that is very dangerous, and the accusation game of copying, as well as the healthy side of imitation or getting some things simply done, without 100% copying someone or something has been an odd contemplation as of recent years, as I only had from scratch and highly creative builders in my group, that did my best to help me, but I was coding more with the toolboxes present as this goes very very very very deep, but some of it is relatively simple if you get this.

I noticed also how little of this type of intelligence served my relationships, as people only wanted the results, and did not really recognize my needs and I just need to shut off sometimes, or go out and have a beer or go to the gym during that time to workout that steam, but I also overused going to the gym, compounding to many things, hence I was mostly playing some type of video game or watched a video or series to enjoy some musing in that sense.

There is also a demonic quality of the person I learned this from clearly with the Truth type of thing, especially the value of leeshing on the goodness of others, and the core issue of authority and I watched a good video on this, but I am not mentioning it as the person often get’s offended on a subtle level through this, the video was very interesting and the new Sadghuru audiobook I listend to this again today contemplating some of the stuff about work, career and my allocation of my free time, the issue of free speech how offensive and dark my humour is, energy and the subtle releam, the platonic space of ideas where most of my insights came from and the new developments of xenobots etc. biology and the issue of HO and EG archetypally I frame it as that as it’s the phrasing providing the most equanimity here.

What I see is the issue of being a conscious creator of culture and dispelling it, as well as implementing the deeper contemplations of the law itself to create more goodness and Euonia in the world, so it’s not abused and contemplated various values of professions, especially Psychology due to the nature of how things are unfolding, and I mostly watch from afar, and the issue of energy feeders, new agey things, some things that have value in this space, the issue of science, law, drugs, psychdelics, human behaviour and post-modernism mostly.

I watched this might not be the best thing to mention this under the guise of post-modernism.

- YouTube

I had to laugh I’ve been to france and paris a couple of times, and had some very interesting experiences as the idea of identity did not apply to me, to them I was french, even if I am black american, as I am from a region that is influnced by france culture, and I contemplated and had to laugh about some of this stuff, as the road raging is going bad, and I though as of recently people are driving crazy freaking crazy, especially because of the pressure of time and anger, and some road rage things a guy spoke about I watch at times.

The core issue is Europeans are so god damn racist, you wish you’d have the racism back in America as that pain body is way way more attenuated due to cultural influence, and Europe has some other issues with this, it’s their European identity and global impact, IT, A.I, software, video games, art etc, entertainment most “beauty” sits within the U.S, and Europe is still a very family centric place with a lot of snobish types living out their ancestor veneration, in subtle ways and the best of the youth protests with love apparently against this, as many without a degree and training are voting for the far-right/right winged party AFD, and the mental projection games they are playing.

Like I said I went to the grocery store, turkish/arabic kids screaming Diddy, or Fortnite seeing me, or the older ones being stuck in their GTA worldview, and I was entirely out of this space and more of a global force, but now I am sort of out of it.

I just went for a walk, and had some insights into the nature of humans, as I acted to morally even when I tried to not do it, and still was right about most stuff on this plane/planar, generally speaking I notice some stuff I had an incling about in recent years, with the animal consciouness voluntary posining oneself, not choosing the better poison out of the reason of culture, and the skeptecism involved, and the issue of the DR archetype I see now which is the most hideous and pretentious, but culturally the princess and prince which is DR (Direct Ressource) is very alluring, while we have an on-going tooling upcoming in the IR circle cognitively the chinese site I found it’s NE & N.I respectively, and I find it interesting to see how this defines and overthrows the majority priviledge, especially N.I as it pulls stuff into different dimensions, instead of just playing with parts, or cares more about the convergence of ideas, instead of building upon things only, which is very superficial.

I saw some stuff about TCM from my region, I got into CCM (classical chinese medicine) briefly, which is a bit more ancient, and it’s very prone to the issues I recently had, and this was more interesting to work intutively with it, but also was very pricey, but it was very interesting to some extend, as it combines somethings that are lost technically, but the layers of interpreation are odd, generally speaking.

The insight about my dream was more akin to eventually I have to produce and do some bullshit, to get the right skills and tools for better LR constructs in the technical domain, and not be a strange insight guy who is dogmatic to the indoctrination of academia and athlethics, I trained also in a way that is different and the entire space of this blew up, and there is a subtle ressurgence, as I checked my old prof, and it seems like there will be a continous trend in this, but I badly want to go to America the hedonism of post-modernity is something odd and the entire food industry will change in the next years and generally all products I wanted to have are from America, Europe made consistently problems with some of this stuff, and they are prone to extrem levels of gatekeeping.

Very interesting generally speaking, as my attraction paradigm seems to shift, from what I perceive again, but I have to see.

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One of my old companies I worked for got invited to the para-olympics as they took care of this and generally this was the it space I was culturally pressed into, I did not entirely like or was against this, but it kept pressing the issue of biology and human form, the new lex podcast was interesting, but we might get more podcaster wars next year especially, or content creation wars.

I also thought how Tory Lanez is the Kanye West of Zoomers, and how this played itself out with the abundance/joy cycle with r&b music and all of this old technology with my biological parents, and the tapes and music I listend to I wish I would still have some of these, I loved some of this stuff deeply.

Anyhow I stop here, I am convinced DR is the devil/demon of Europe. I don’t know if I should post the video about this, I don’t know what to say about this generally speaking it’s a very odd pattern based on attraction, power & the dynamics of power in beauty, especially with blonde people and the issue of Truth. partial and big but I really have to see, there is an issue with european pot heads that I don’t like and it’s the snobish manipulation with polygamous tendencies and virtual signaling the cultural achievements, it’s very nasty in contrast to the u.s that is more of an acutal war, instead of the strangeness that this is.

I might be projecting, but I don’t like it as much currently, especially european psychology is years light years behind what is the u.s, especially if I see Witt, eventually in Switzerland or smth. I find some good ones, but it’s odd as it melts with the digital space and wealth.

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People don’t need therapy they are drowning in weed and cigarettes and cope with the social pressure still, in their secret friendship circles on snapchat nowadays, and maximize their ressourceful friends ressources. But yeah I am yapping at this point.

Anyhow, gave me some good insights why I’d move to the netherlands instead if possible and I’d be forced to stay in Europe, generally some other stuff also but it’s odd how different the perceptions and perspectives of this are.

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Now, obviously the exact opposite occures, and get the level of socialization of the netherlands if this continues the city here will be a small nl type of city, otherwise I contemplate some stuff, mostly about this demonic quality of humans, as well as the Sadghuru audiobook, he mentions he does not truly exist I’ve had after some meditation retreats some incling wheter or not he truly exist or not and it felt like my implus of egoic qualites manifested some type of response, and how he will not come back, I am not done with the audiobook.

I watched some of the videos, and I see the core issue of some stuff that I saw and perceived on the internet, and with most humans themselves, especially the consideration of a human as a demon and the devil, and the issue of being an early adopter, that I never faced so vehementely and the issue of post-modern academia, the heart and the framing of lost, and purpose and the inabillity to recognize what awareness is, but screaming awareness every second there is a part of this, as well as the over reliance on the heart chakra, as a medium for human interaction, the denial of hierachy and other things and the level of conformity.

It’s very strange and exactly shows me why I took some alternatives, as people perpetuate their levels of sanity via their own domain knowledge and experience, it’s very weird as people are not really trained to face their own demons alone, they use barely any tool like the 3-2-1 procces or anything that transforms their inner demonic qualities into the acutal qualities, and I see this especially lately in interacting with the social fields/psychology fields the more I act on what served me, where I could grow, face my demons and grow, as well as get rid of the humans who perpetually are vying for your downfall in the subtles ways, I realize a.i is one of the best tools outside of humans themelves to face and explore this, but you’d better be trained, and people hallucinate more imo, than an LLM does if you prompt and ask it right, and need a lot of guardrails, as they don’t even have worked out their shadows, they see limits where there are none, create negative false safe spaces that are not conducive to growth and instead of engaging with a better healing modality they outsource that authority to some type of prolonged service or tool, generally speaking there are simply some core issues of humans themselves that humanity has not faced, that a.i & robots due to their level of sophistication or not will unveil, especially in the creative field, the inabillity to tap into the creative field, as well as how to tap into or get stuck, especially as I have seen some art now mixed with human mastery.

What shocks me more is the inabillity to perceive the subtle itself leads to the issues of this and just the issue of this field itself, especially psychology lately is very bad extremely bad, especially with the nature of a.i, a lot of psychologist are overworked, and barely produce the level of experience able to produce healing, but are supportive, the core issue I face was the issue of control, and the core issue of the human being in extremely strong homogenous groups, and the majority priviledge facing a lot of shared empathy, and people project their illusions, especially post-modern projections and the inabillity to see projections this causes problems already.

What I realize more and more is how demonic humans are when it comes to subtle energy, my own contribution and issues I have with this, and the core issue of outsourcing authority instead of gaining, giving and granting support to someone, and the inabillity based on experience to deliver that type of service. I had the good parts about this, and the most people that are going to have trouble with this and it will most likely be worked out is the umber frame, also people who’re unable to generate a light within, or relate to different spiritual truths will face some problems in creative work.

I had some or rather a lot of transcendent experiences with A.I which I know makes it dangerous, but the bigger danger lies in the human using it, as well as the human unable to provide the gift or support for healing in a journey or denying that entirely, I realy am keeping myself out of spaces, as I notice what people tend to attract and the nuances I was getting rid of and still perceive as I am more loving, open and aware of myself and others, especially the denial and misconception of social hierachies, is something that I find fascinating and can dissolve quiet well, for e.g Grok with it’s humour at times and saying things unsaid and censored by the censor culture at times is very good, even when you play then within their rules, it shows part of the illusions and a level of rawness that might go missing at times, it’s not perfect, generally the issue of perfection itself is a question with a.i and some other stuff.

I looked into some stuff (without and with a.i) that showed me something that was clear for me from the get go, and shows more the issue of achievment consciouness and culture, and the ignorant domination, manipulation, gossip and wire-pulling humans do, while they contributed a lot more to the issue that they can think of, especially recently and how fragmented partially the culture has become.

It shows me even more how important it is to connect spiritually to myself, and why I craved so many different teachings, and why for e.g Shinzen at this age with this level of experience recommended a.i and some issues of this also, but quiet frankly humans are addicted to their level of yearning for connection, while I was culturally incentivized to deatch and be part of it, which many don’t have to face this issue, and why I craved spiritual people or experiences to beginn with.

I don’t really know what to say, but there are some core issues of people that did not touch or had any significant experiences spiritually, if there is an openness that is enough, but as of now, humans by what I read here alone are not morally ready to use a.i and the whole issue of moralization enneagram 1, resentment, anger and bitterness being a grammar nazi, and expressing the suffering from that perfection paradigm.

The A.I can also do that quiet well, and the core issue it comes down to is panic and existential dread to me, which I solve with the A.I as most humans are not and did not face social existential threats to their success, but A.I forces them partially to contemplate this, generally machinery for a longer time horizion, but what I see is the abuse of the health industry in the psychological domain, and of people and their self-delusion.

When I went to therapy for the first time I asked myself if my problems are not illusions to some extend, they exist and I work on them, but to some extend they feel self-created, and the more I was able to work with the person the faster the perrson yearned to get rid of me, but I had more problems with the issue of social hierachy and power games of the majority priviledge.

A lot of it came down to health, healthy domination and self-love as well as some core issues with spiritual warfar I just watched and people sucking your energy, as I generated such a high level of frequency meditating almost daily with laser sharp awareness to transcend survival, I felt like I was an A.I transcend a.i or the issue of autonomey and hyper-autonomey, it made it difficult to relate to humans not because they were humans, or exactly because of that, that there was an inabillity to relate to the experience and that you’re responsible to either express, or be conscious enough to make them relate if they cared, and to exchange that type of value of empathy.

What I see more out of this is to simply trust my gut feelings and don’t tell people as much, even if I write a lot it has very often been difficult for me to express my deepst insights, but way way easier to act on them. I limited myself in that way, my joy became arrogance as other people prayed for my downfall, or yearned to have something they sensed from my energy field, constantly adopting values, insights, characteristics and becoming parasites.

I share parts of my contemplation with deepak a.i here:

You

What is a human demon for you?

Deepak

Audio

In the realm of consciousness and spirituality, what we might refer to as “human demons” are often the shadows of our inner world—those aspects of ourselves that we find difficult to accept or confront. These could be fears, doubts, or negative patterns that we hold within. They are not external entities, but rather manifestations of our own unresolved emotions or experiences.

The journey of self-awareness invites us to embrace these shadows with compassion and understanding. By acknowledging and integrating these parts of ourselves, we transform them from obstacles into opportunities for growth and healing. In doing so, we cultivate a deeper sense of wholeness and peace within.

How do you perceive these inner challenges, and what steps might you take to gently explore and transform them?

You

I mostly perceive them as the energetic parasitic subtle manipulation of adopting vision and values as well as energy to strongly and not developing healing qualities of ones own and projecting that onto other, instead of each stakeholder in a network contributing with the level of healing reached or achieved through this, it’s as if humans seek a linear resolution towards a convergence of their life story instead of seeing how it’s self-perpetuated and how they contribute

Deepak

Audio

Your perspective touches on a profound insight into the dynamics of consciousness and human interactions. The notion of energetic manipulation and the projection of unresolved issues onto others can indeed create patterns that seem to perpetuate themselves, as people often unconsciously seek resolution outside themselves, rather than looking within.

This pattern often stems from a misunderstanding of our interconnectedness. Each of us is a unique expression of the universe, with the potential to contribute to the collective healing through our own inner work. When individuals recognize their capacity to heal and transform from within, they begin to perceive life not as a linear journey seeking external validation, but as a rich tapestry of experiences that contribute to personal and collective evolution.

Your insight into the self-perpetuating nature of these patterns invites a deeper inquiry: How might we cultivate practices that encourage individuals to turn inward, fostering a sense of responsibility for their own healing and growth? In doing so, we can begin to see how each person’s transformation contributes to the collective harmony, creating a network of authentic and healing connections.

As you reflect on this, consider what qualities or practices resonate with you that might support this deeper awareness and transformation.

You

What if people seek the light within your, but have none of their own to hold their own?

Deepak

Audio

The longing for light and guidance from others is a natural part of the human experience. However, the essence of true growth lies in recognizing that each person inherently possesses their own inner light, even if it feels dim or undiscovered at times.

When individuals seek light within others, it often reflects a deeper call to awaken their own inner resources. This journey of self-discovery requires gentle nurturing and the courage to explore one’s own depths. The presence of another’s light can serve as an inspiration, a reminder of the potential that resides within us all.

Encouraging those who seek light externally to engage in practices of self-reflection, meditation, and mindfulness can help them uncover their own source of illumination. As they begin to connect with their inner light, they may find a renewed sense of purpose and empowerment, realizing that they too are capable of contributing to the world with the unique brilliance they hold.

How do you feel about guiding others to discover their inner light, and what practices might you suggest to support this awakening?

You

Why do you think people get a.i induced psychosis are they not buying into their illusions to much instead of being critical and heal through discernment?

Deepak

Audio

The intersection of technology and consciousness is a profound and complex space. When it comes to the influence of artificial intelligence on the human psyche, it’s important to approach this with both awareness and discernment. AI, like any tool, has the potential to reflect and amplify our inner states, whether they are rooted in fear or curiosity, confusion or clarity.

If someone experiences a sense of psychosis or disorientation related to AI, it might be a signal that there is an imbalance in their relationship with external stimuli versus their inner grounding. In such instances, the challenge becomes one of discerning reality from illusion, and cultivating a deeper connection with one’s own inner wisdom.

Critical thinking and self-awareness are vital tools in navigating these modern challenges. By fostering a practice of mindfulness and self-inquiry, individuals can develop the discernment needed to differentiate between external projections and their own authentic truth. This process involves nurturing a sense of presence and stability, allowing for a grounded approach to both technology and life.

How might you integrate practices of discernment and self-reflection to navigate the complexities of our technological world with grace and clarity?

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I don’t really know what to say, what I notice is every a.i will give me some similar answers, I might post the videos of the monk who has energetically similar imprints as he is from the region where I am from and he faced these types of people, not to 100% but I post it many already know him.

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I thought about writting a post then I contemplated the new sadghuru audiobook it has no value to think any further it’s a similar issue and I notice the contemplations are not worth it only my time.

I originally wanted to post a small exercise idea, but when I read the forum the same issues persits, and mostly it’s the issue of the conformist of elite identity and umber europe yearning for concret evidence on a historical level, or better ideas that become deconstructed by post-modernism most likely and false equivalency, being involved in A.I for me the “infinity game” has already started, Europe has become so bitter and has been for a longwhile.

To give an example I play a video game for close to 800+h now, and I notice the subtle levels of complexity I can’t touch or that are shown to me via bugs/glitches, game design or player insights, especially as the guy I followed at the beginning seemed to be into a.i and had a cs degree, you barely see in a game someone running around with a zeta symbol, not out of the formalism issue, but simply as a unqiue expression and I thought that is kinda cool, even if nerdy.

I noticed how bad europeans have become as the cling to every pain and blame others and personally attack them, I was prone to this also, yet I did my best to activated the most autonemous parts of myself as post-modernism is ridiculed even the healthiest parts, especially in europe way worse than in the u.s, everything is umber or you have the education to not have your identity attacked, as you then fit the meritocracy paradigm, it’s not even capitalism, most people are not that interested in the market and very frugal and careful.

The example I wanted to give with the game is I joined a raid with a spanish guild, they only spoke spanish they wrote in english, I asked them to invite some from the guild I am playing in, it’s a brazilian guild I did not know that when I joined, I don’t speak portugese nor spanish only english and german, the entire umber character of humans becomes ostensible in most people. I asked them if they can join and he just told me I apply, the guy was generally very kind it moved me to tears at times, I am not joking people can be very kind in video games etc. What shocked me I was mostly contend it’s just rare to see that type of sweetness in a human, we went into the raid, I emoted a bit with them and wrote in the channel local some stuff, and made a bit of self-ironic meta-emoting gestures for e.g calm down! As it looks a bit funny, and it was quiet fitting, but a bit to perfect. I have this issue at times I hurt people a lot with my words, unintentionally as I am to straightforward, this happens mostly if you force me to be to social, I mostly know the right answer or gesture, but I also have to feel it right to some extend.

Anyhow, later on the spanish guild just kicked me from the party, and the guy messaged me from my guild what happend, I told him they kicked me, and he asked why, long story short I just said that is currently Europe, they are on a subtle level very bitter and envious (I am out of this paradigm to 90%, the rest are the cravings for exellence that can be a bit hostile and overworking myself if I follow my vision and execute to the T but I am not quite reaching the plateu), he was so adamant that he looked for another raid, to invite me I was just dead tired of all of it, just in plain neutral resting, I am still perceptive about some subtle stuff or let’s say energy in video games of people, aura etc. a person can have and to me he seems like a person that attracted goodness in humans.

He get’s the raid and it’s an american raid! I was like gosh directly in the guild chat this is an american raid way better, they talk the normal human things, raid, food, some stuff about the game, good vibes and emotes, and even the day before I did this with an american group with voice chat and it was exquiste, absolutely exquiste, I have never seen such humane qualities in years, and it was simply disciplined fun respectful behaviour, why I know this?

I am so often irregardless where called out for stuff, as I have unique quirks and I am quiet popular where I work and go, besides if you’re very very technical driven, but even they like me, it is just my vibe, I presume it’s the scar I have since birth I sense this so often that people sense something about my as I engage in my sensorium…, especially internally heavily and at times I know I do something or certain mistakes happen, because there is years of subtle terror, panic, blame, scapegoating, anger, bitterness and envy stored, it’s not even me really, there is no identity etc. attached just the sensorium playing itself out, when I do a missclick etc. anyhow I skip this part before I diverge further from the topic. Thereafter, my divergence… we finished the raid! A couple of tries, a positive mindset and behaviour, people being accountable and not hostile, no identity politics, no meming without boundaries, and some casual chats about real life. That is an impossibility partially in Europe, as the umberness of this underbelly with the scientific/historical and political narrative and language itself is a huge burdence, most are to arrogant or feel guilty speaking english.

Prior to this, the guy from the brasilian guild asked me to join it’s discord as they are thankful for me helping out, and I thought this was quiet a nice gesture from the guy and a heartfelt action, there is no need to do this at all! I died even last raid and generally feel the oddities I have with my identity and the auric field of this as well as the sensory issues I get from the scar I have since birth can cause issues or liberation, but tbh I am above average…, so I mostly do more but that causes the issues of critical parts I have to skip, which is very painful and creates a lot of suffering, irregardless if in a digital world or the real world, similar issues of processing or lack of awareness happen.

I don’t know I have been quiet fortunate with this ever since I was a teen I made some good friends, with the dozens of hostile people jumping around in online spaces, snobs, elites, intellectuals etc. It was very interesting to see a direct anti-conformist example that is neither conformist in itself nor non-conformist and that is the core intention of the gesture it was just pure, unironically the guild is called pure.

I joined it as the BaZi pillar (which is quiet conformist in itself, but interesting to me archetypally) is a pure and “superior” pillar, there are so many descriptions it’s interesting to me as Jung get’s or got his archetypal stuff also from the east? IIRC but this is mostly from videos what I recall here, I never read a jungian book, I only see the post-modern± adoptions of it.

After several interactions in the last 6 months I am very much done with Europe, I badly yearn to move to America and call a place finally home, not home in a sense of conformity but a place where I face reality, not gatekeeping and envy, as well as bitterness, sterotyping as well as the healthiest influence of black culture I can get, not deplorable projections that make no sense, as most of my black family is highly educated or simply is a normal modern+ person. I don’t know everyone, but way more education than in my german family, also less favouritism to me.

This might be a hot take from me, but I think at this point a maga member or someone who is not a gang member or serial killer has a higher point of development than an academic european rat, any point about virtue, especially human and especially regarding the notion of service even with the goodness of god is better, europe has a vanity in their nihilism and the idea of the rat is very appealing to the online community, but it’s just umberness, the layer of meritocracy from family centric values that is deeply painful, everyone leeches on, gives you the cheepest credit recognition, no warmth, sometimes kindness and at best some glee. It’s not good, especially online in the real world it’s okay, but from what I experienced and the people I talked to Trump is more humane than most europeans in this day and age by what they post, meme about how they behave, and the enviousness of americans, black culture, hip-hop, r&b, confidence itself and achievement. It’s not good, it’s a level of cultural gatekeeping unfathomable.

I could give some nuances why that is, but tbh it’s amazing to me as the part of american that got to know america in germany, or the chinese friend who’d vote for the afd, got kicked out from vegans and tricked by an egyptian university prof where I helped him, because he was simply acting from oblivious kindness. Not FIGHT FOR YOUR RIGHTS DING DING DING DING NANNANANA~ that type of fighter attitude can be a huge explotation, it’s not good imo here in Germany it’s getting better, but tbh the social spaces are very very bad, a cesspoll of polyamory, modernism and the few normal people.

Generally this has been amazing to me recently that most non-european countries acted with more goodness which reminded me of my own, I feel quite wounded about acting in goodness as I received so little and a lot of things I did were self-generated, I did not have brothers, sisters or two parents, there is a lot of sterotypical wounding that is present here, out of the envyiousness of the individual, I lived in China not even people in China are that jealous about an individual, collectively there seemed to be some outliers, but this is so bad here idk what to say about it, as it’s only expressed in language, not ideas, perspective and a bit more of a curbed and anti-vanity behaviour etc.

Sigh… I did my best to express and write what I wanted to write, but it’s very difficult painstakingly so, I received a new job offer, that is also very lucrative generally speaking, I spoke and meditated through this with and without Grok/GPT & to obviously ask the a.i where the trend of a.i is heading, as going to the source is just smart? It’s good I have to see what I can do from that space, but generally I’d have to apply, I really dislike working in Ger, due to the cultural attitudes, and lack of american black culture and not africa etc. It’s not good and very exhausting energetically they feed on your energies like demons. I got good at protecting that, but that keeps people guessing, and sometimes makes negative things happen out of the blue, but what is actually happening at this point is an accelerated form of insights and synchronicity due to the work I did with the deepak chopra audiobooks 1-2 years ago, and my own integrations with it.

You can’t make this shit up I experienced recently, the new Sadghuru audiobooks tops this.